We are in the midst of an unsteady economy and I did the unthinkable. I resigned from my position on Tuesday and unless you despise your job~ which I do not~ there is a mixed bag of emotions and I have, admittedly, shed some tears.
At the same time, God is giving me peace in this decision. There are other things for me to do; the time had come. Having spent over 4 years in various positions at my home church, I will leave behind the familiarity of staff who have become close friends and volunteers who have come alongside me to serve in various ministries. I will leave behind relationships.
I pour a lot into friendships and wear my heart on my sleeve. This afternoon, as I shared the news with a few select people who happened by my office door, it became harder to say the words each time. Finally, I just called it a day and headed to the car.
Despite our best intentions, our lunches together will become sparse and when I attend service on Saturday or Sunday, I will no longer be privy to the items discussed in staff meetings or the plans for future projects.
My workplace will become my place of worship. Period.
Life is made up of transitions and this is the beginning of a beautiful transition. I made a difference where I was and I intend to make a difference where I am going ~ this isn’t anything more than putting on another hat and finding a new passion…and there are many in my head. I sit in anticipation of what God has in store and what doors will be flung open. In any case, there is peace in the decision. I will draw closer and wait.
While I wait, I will write. I will paint the guest room that I bought paint for 9 months ago and never had the time to execute the task. I will cook! I will play with the dogs and I will take an occasional afternoon nap. I will read! I will spend much more time in quiet devotion and reflection and I will browse B&N book shelves while sipping on a Starbucks chai tea latte. I will refresh my soul and renew my spirit.
I will become a more devoted wife who isn’t too tired to discuss daily events or walk the dogs after dinner. I will have time to focus on home projects and eliminating clutter…in the cabinets and on the calendar.
This is a transition I wasn’t expecting until God’s promptings made it so clear that even I could no longer deny the push. There are no regrets and no misgivings…His peace is all over this decision… but the rest is still unwritten.