3 years and a lifetime

I truly love the idea of blogs and how you and I can catch glimpses of seemingly ordinary people who have extraordinary thoughts and experiences. I love stumbling across a blog that changes how I view myself simply because the writers can take their obstacles and victories and make them universal…these blogs make me feel like I’ve got a supporting role in how the world operates and remind me that I’m not alone.

Tomorrow, it will be 3 years since I began this little blog. I had no way of knowing, at that time, it’s purpose. In fact, even supposing that it had any purpose other than to help me sort through my own internal thoughts is pretty presumptuous. Still, I would share and friends would read, offering encouragement and their own stories.

In truth, this blog has been a catharsis. This blog has seen me through some of the darkest days of my life and though you probably wouldn’t be able to pinpoint the dates or the actual events…I can. This morning, I scanned back through some of the posts and knew, with pinpoint accuracy, what was happening in my life at that moment. On that day.

Fortunately, not all days were dark. There were funny stories along the way which reminded me that even though “life” was kicking my ass in a pretty big way (sorry for the expletive but it’s about as close to the truth as I can articulate), God was still there. The world was still turning, people were still continuing with their lives, my dogs still needed fed, and the morning paper was still being delivered. God was there….and He is here.

Without him, I am certain that I wouldn’t be sitting in this house, on this day, blogging. If this little blog does nothing else but tell you that….then I’m good. I would have been the 17 year old I once was and would have fled the scene and the aftermath into a world where destroying me was the objective. I was actually pretty good at that objective, incidentally.

Had it not been for God and my reliance on him to see me through it ~ not around it, but right smack through the middle of it ~ I just don’t know where I’d be but I am certain it would not be here.

And, so, wherever you are today, I believe that God wants to meet you in that place. It’s so heavy on my heart this morning to tell you that nothing is impossible, nothing is beyond his reach, and his plans for you are beyond what you can imagine… had I not surrendered myself and relied on him well before I was in the “foxhole”, everything would have turned out differently.

I just want you to know.

Blessings,
Amy